"friends"

{05.18.2024}

i don't want to be friends with you. friends is too surface level a word to describe the connection i've developed with you. when i say "friends," i've never meant friends. i mean "friends" that have always stolen glances. "friends" that have a deeper history & a deeper future. "friends" that were right person, and just barely the wrong time. "friends" that have such a deep rooted connection, "friends" that are soulmates & have been lovers in other lives. "friends" that have traced each other's tattoos with their eyes, & hated when others did the same. i don't want to be friends with you, i never wanted to be friends with you.

i want to be fully encompassed in the love that i have for you, i want to love you & be loved by you. i want the stolen glances to be allowed, and followed by embraces and kisses. i want to delve into our history and even deeper into the future. i want you to be my right person, right time. i want to explore the connection that we've had in other lifetimes, in this one. i want to trace your tattoos with not only my eyes, but my fingertips.

we were never friends, and we can never be friends, because it's always been so much deeper than that.