lessons learned

{11.06.2017}

I'm not happy, and it's been a while since I was... and it's all I want, is to be happy again. Why did I rely on a boy for my temporary happiness? Why did I let someone into my life and get attached just for them to hurt me? When will I learn? Will I ever learn? I'm done letting people into my life to leave me feeling like an after thought. I'm tired of hurting, it's been over a month and I'm tired of heartache. I still have dreams with you in them, that make my heart so happy, but I only want to cry when I wake up, faced with the reality that that's not what it is anymore... and you're perfectly fine.